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03 April 2007 @ 07:55 pm
I dont post much here but I could use the advice, so yes.

Sooooo... ever since Ive heard a certain song I have felt a pull, a twitch, from a muse, or soulbond if you would. (I tend to perfer the term muse) I was thinking perhaps it was a muse I had never met before, but was too shy to show themselves. The song was by Panic at the Disco, cant think of the title, but twas the one that went "We sure are in for a show tonight!" and "The good doctor is beckoning..." Called really strongly, and it drove me nuts.

I realized today that it wasnt a new muse, but rather an old one. An old muse I THOUGHT had wandered away as some tend to do. He had caused much grief with his presence before, distorting those he could into new images, new forms. His power being that over form and function. He could bend others forms into his will, consequently their minds in a way as well. He had my writing muse for a time, but my art muse managed to find a way to remedy this. Karatas's (the art muse) breed and line are apparently immune.

But yes, that muse was the one it called to. Kasai, one of the first muses and the darkest Ive known. Im not sure if hes capable of good, he only sees power and doing what he wishes with it. Not that I have ever gotten to know him very well, merely because he gives me the shivers quite strongly. Hes messed with those I care about, and THAT puts him at odds with me.

But I get a feeling I havent been fair with him either. Its strange, Im not really certain HOW to get to know him better, if I should at all. Perhaps a line should be drawn somewhere? The original way he affected my writing muse, after all, was because it was through a long novel I wrote Kasai was first introduced. Back before I even knew the dangers, or what a muse was. I could draw of course, since Karrots immune... but Karrot despises him. Quite a feat considering Karrot loves everyone. And I fear hes far too dark to be in any rp, I dont want to know what he would do if given that chance, who might be infected.

And writing is OUT of the question. Permanatly.

And yet, what if Im missing something, what if he has a reason, what if tehres a way I can help? I realize that the most direct way would be through a one on one conversation, but my own bias and prejudice against his previous actions get in my way. Hes around now, at any rate. I dont know, I guess Im merely looking for advice about the situation. I hope this post is at least coherent. *smiles*
Current Music: "Dancing Mad" from FFVI
Yamikaknightessyamika on April 4th, 2007 03:17 am (UTC)
Hmmm quite a pickle you've got yourself into there. The only thing I can suggest is to try drawing this trouble muse, Kasai was it? By drawing him you are giving him a form, and you are forcing him and the art muse to at least face one another. I think if you can successfully draw this muse, then you may overcome your problem as it will also help you to understand the difficult process of giving new form, something Kasai is very experienced at. It may be hard for you but please give it your all, for them.

After you have finished the picture, then try to write a line or two describing Kasai in a positive/mysterious light. Invent a scenario where he is the frontman, in no more than a paragraph. That will let your souldbonds know that you have gone to the effort of trying to understand and work together with them all.
LB Lee: serious thoughtlb_lee on April 4th, 2007 04:14 am (UTC)
Huh. We're not the original poster, but you really have a good idea there, and it might apply to a defunct situation of ours. *strokes chin* Hmm.

Good common sense too--if you can call anything regarding this as practical!
Yamikaknightessyamika on April 4th, 2007 05:15 am (UTC)
Uh... Translation please? Am I being praised or abused for my idea? I just felt that the only way to overcome problems is to face them. You don't think this qualifies?
LB Lee: kevin maguirelb_lee on April 4th, 2007 05:43 am (UTC)
*surprised* No, no, I was honestly praising you! I honestly think it's a good idea. I just never thought in that way before, that's all, and I was surprised that I hadn't. It seems basic sense.
Yamikaknightessyamika on April 4th, 2007 06:06 am (UTC)
lol ok no worries. Sorry for jumping on you! *jumps off you, gets slapped by a beautiful young winged male soulbond called Ame* ^^; Uh mind if I jump on you again? That slap was really hot! *Ame glares in this direction* Ok maybe not.

Anyway thanks. I think we sometimes don't really know how to approach our soulbonds. I've learnt to treat them as real and practical beings so many of my solutions are basic and straight forward. Not saying it's better or that it works for everyone, it's just one thing to try out.
LB Lee: drama llamalb_lee on April 4th, 2007 06:49 pm (UTC)
It's okay. Sometimes I want to just KILL the damn Internet for making sarcasm such a pain. ("Are you... being sarcastic?" "Nooo, I'd never dream of being sarcastic! Who'd ever do such a cruel thing?" "...") You probably know my reputation; I'm a pompous wannabe mod, but at least I'm straightforward.

Yeah, it's not something people usually know how to deal with. We don't have differing muses, but we did have a rather creepy invader a while ago and we weren't sure what to do with him, so we stuffed him in a bottle and chucked him. Still, kinda curious just what he was doing in our brain, so I might actually try what you mentioned, see if I can't get some answers.